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GIVE IT HEART, GIVE IT MIND, GIVE IT SOUL, DON'T STOP!

I am sitting in peace and quiet for the first time in a very long time. This past weekend was full…


IF YOU GET TIRED, LEARN TO REST NOT TO QUIT

The boys and I have settled really well in Copenhagen but a tiredness has also descended on me. I…


REGRET IS SCARIER THAN CHANGE

I can’t sleep. It is rare that I can’t sleep, even with all the worries of illness throughout time,…


Milo Apr 2021

When All We Do is still Not Enough

Pain is a subjective thing I guess. People talk about the most painful thing that’s ever happened…


SCANXIETY

I never knew what scanxiety was until last year when Milo started treatment. When Oscar was…


FEAR TAKES THE JOY OUT OF LIFE

This is the first time I have written in over a year and a half. Ian was diagnosed with a brain…


Walks to the park

Often when I walk towards the park from our home I am reminded of Oscar’s last trip to the park.…


THE ONLY WEALTH WE HAVE IS OUR RELATIONSHIPS

Oscar’s funeral was exactly 4 years ago on Sunday 13th May – it is also the day we attempt to take…


LOSING MY BREATH AND NEVER QUITE CATCHING IT AGAIN

My grandmother died this Christmas. She had a peaceful death and had just been, as she had always…


IF LOVE COULD HAVE SAVED YOU, YOU WOULD HAVE LIVED FOREVER

What I want today on Oscar's 13th birthday is to sit and cry all day. But I can't - I have 3 other…